[The Servants that had been killed, Shinji's death at Illya's hands, Kirei... he definitely hadn't enjoyed any of those. It had all been necessary to prevent further harm to innocents.
Isn't that what Red's been implying is her job as well?]
...No. There's one big difference. Saber and I never killed innocent people. We only fought people who hurt others.
[He thinks about Shinji. He'd done awful things, sure, but did he really deserve to die the way he did?
He thinks about Rider, who'd just been saddled with a bad Master and didn't have any choice in the matter.
He thinks about the people at the school, hundreds injured and traumatised because he hadn't stopped Shinji soon enough.
He thinks about Archer sacrificing his life just to buy them time.
He thinks about Saber.
And then, because that's what it always comes back to, he thinks of the fire. He was the only one who survived. That guilt is always there, and it ties itself into everything he does.]
I...
[There's nothing he can say. He can't justify any of his failures.]
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Date: 2018-06-13 06:19 pm (UTC)[She says it wryly, but she's making a joke.]
But thank you.
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Date: 2018-06-13 06:25 pm (UTC)[He scratches at his head, a little awkward.]
I don't agree with the stuff you do here, but I don't think you're a bad person yourself? So...
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Date: 2018-06-13 06:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-13 06:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-13 07:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-13 07:12 pm (UTC)...There's going to be another murder tomorrow, isn't there?
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Date: 2018-06-13 07:14 pm (UTC)Hopefully not.
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Date: 2018-06-13 07:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-13 07:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-13 07:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-14 05:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-14 05:59 pm (UTC)[The Servants that had been killed, Shinji's death at Illya's hands, Kirei... he definitely hadn't enjoyed any of those. It had all been necessary to prevent further harm to innocents.
Isn't that what Red's been implying is her job as well?]
...No. There's one big difference. Saber and I never killed innocent people. We only fought people who hurt others.
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Date: 2018-06-14 06:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-14 06:25 pm (UTC)[He thinks about Shinji. He'd done awful things, sure, but did he really deserve to die the way he did?
He thinks about Rider, who'd just been saddled with a bad Master and didn't have any choice in the matter.
He thinks about the people at the school, hundreds injured and traumatised because he hadn't stopped Shinji soon enough.
He thinks about Archer sacrificing his life just to buy them time.
He thinks about Saber.
And then, because that's what it always comes back to, he thinks of the fire. He was the only one who survived. That guilt is always there, and it ties itself into everything he does.]
I...
[There's nothing he can say. He can't justify any of his failures.]
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Date: 2018-06-14 06:57 pm (UTC)I am not trying to escape judgement for what I have done. I know the conversations Saint Peter will be having with me.
But saying 'at least I'm not as bad as that' is a poor justification, and a very quick way to pull yourself down as well.
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Date: 2018-06-14 07:05 pm (UTC)...I know I'm far from perfect. I've made plenty of mistakes. But if you think that's going to make me change my mind, you're wrong.
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Date: 2018-06-14 08:54 pm (UTC)Just remember this: Judging others by their actions while judging yourself by your intentions is a very quick way to make mistakes.
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Date: 2018-06-14 08:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-14 09:30 pm (UTC)That's private information.
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Date: 2018-06-14 10:02 pm (UTC)[He just. Gets up and grabs the plate (assuming Red has finished eating) before walking out of the room.]