We...never could be together, officially. He was my bodyguard, and I was a very predominant member of the music community. Given how closely we worked together, and the public attitude of young unmarried women being around young unmarried men when feelings were involved...it never would have worked. The scandal alone would have destroyed both of us.
But sometimes I did wonder what it would have been like, to be married to that man. Sometimes I think I would have said yes, if he had asked.
[for the first time, Mitsuru feels like she's seeing a little more of Red the person, and a little less of Red the counselor. there's something about this story that tugs at Mitsuru's heartstrings after all-- it's tragic, but she relates to it, in so many ways. even if Mitsuru's own situation was different]
I understand. . . what it feels like to be restricted by people's expectations of you.
[she stops, tilts her head up to gaze out at the lake, arms folded]
And how those restrictions can truly prevent you from grasping what you wish to have, before it's too late.
[it's not every day Mitsuru gets to spend time with someone without anything businesslike overshadowing the entire interactions. she's too busy for that. she's too restrained for that.]
[but that certainly doesn't mean she doesn't want it. and as she turns towards Red, she links her hands together and bows her head]
I apologize for how abrasive I've been towards you these past two weeks. I want answers, but I am realizing that I am not always. . . at my best, when demanding them.
[Stan slamming a door in her face was kind of an eye opener]
In Cloudbank, I probably would have taken you on as a pupil and would have taught you how to navigate the social sphere. You would have been good at it, I think.
[It would have been nice, Red thinks. To have a protege like that.]
It's a sign of your forcible personality, I would say. It's good that you don't back down when you want something.
Exactly. That is why I had a bodyguard in the first place: my songs were quite powerful and moving, but I was not so adept at protecting myself physically. Blue handled things like that for me.
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Date: 2018-06-22 03:23 am (UTC)[The answer to that is complicated.]
We...never could be together, officially. He was my bodyguard, and I was a very predominant member of the music community. Given how closely we worked together, and the public attitude of young unmarried women being around young unmarried men when feelings were involved...it never would have worked. The scandal alone would have destroyed both of us.
But sometimes I did wonder what it would have been like, to be married to that man. Sometimes I think I would have said yes, if he had asked.
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Date: 2018-06-22 03:29 am (UTC)I understand. . . what it feels like to be restricted by people's expectations of you.
[she stops, tilts her head up to gaze out at the lake, arms folded]
And how those restrictions can truly prevent you from grasping what you wish to have, before it's too late.
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Date: 2018-06-22 03:35 am (UTC)By the end of it, Red is smiling.]
We're a lot alike, you know. And not always in the best ways either.
[Same strengths, same flaws.]
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Date: 2018-06-22 03:45 am (UTC)If circumstances were different, perhaps we could sit down at a cafe somewhere and just talk over a cup of café au lait.
[it's not every day Mitsuru gets to spend time with someone without anything businesslike overshadowing the entire interactions. she's too busy for that. she's too restrained for that.]
[but that certainly doesn't mean she doesn't want it. and as she turns towards Red, she links her hands together and bows her head]
I apologize for how abrasive I've been towards you these past two weeks. I want answers, but I am realizing that I am not always. . . at my best, when demanding them.
[Stan slamming a door in her face was kind of an eye opener]
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Date: 2018-06-22 05:12 am (UTC)[It would have been nice, Red thinks. To have a protege like that.]
It's a sign of your forcible personality, I would say. It's good that you don't back down when you want something.
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Date: 2018-06-22 05:11 pm (UTC)[really. which she's a bit embarrassed to admit, but her upbringing is often far more sheltered than she realizes at times]
Perhaps it is. But I suppose force doesn't always help those who need the assistance.
[see: Stan. who apparently doesn't respond well to force at all]
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Date: 2018-06-22 05:39 pm (UTC)Find someone whose strengths are your weaknesses. Partnering up to tackle difficult situations is a very strong method.
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Date: 2018-06-22 07:09 pm (UTC)[she will treasure this advice, Red!1]
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Date: 2018-06-22 07:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-22 07:37 pm (UTC)[after hearing about what Red did to protect them from the hunters, she means]
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Date: 2018-06-22 08:02 pm (UTC)[She definitely has some muscles now though. She's picked up a few skills.]
Unfortunately, the end of the world doesn't particularly care what your profession is.
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Date: 2018-06-22 08:08 pm (UTC)You're right; it doesn't. I suppose that's when you learned how to defend yourself?
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Date: 2018-06-23 04:31 am (UTC)Fortunately I'm a quick learner.
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Date: 2018-06-23 09:19 pm (UTC)