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From:

diesifkilled

Ah.

[Well.]

How should I put it? I think if I let myself be upset now, I won't be able to pick myself up again. So I'm just trying not to think about it.

From:

backspacing

That is...a good way to look at it, I suppose.

From:

diesifkilled

Mmh.

[That's... all he can really say about that. WHAT ARE FEELINGS WE JUST DON'T KNOW]

Hey, by the way. You're close with Archer, right? Do you know which Heroic Spirit he is?

From:

backspacing

[That. Gets her to pause mid-bite.

She chews on it thoughtfully and swallows before responding.]

I do.

He told me not to tell you, by the way.

From:

diesifkilled

Right. I guess he would.

It doesn't really matter, I was just curious.

From:

backspacing

That's supposed to be a big secret in your world anyway isn't it?

From:

diesifkilled

Yeah, generally. It's pretty inconvenient for Servants if people know all their strengths and weaknesses.

I just wanted to know if you knew, that's all.

From:

backspacing

He never spoke in great detail about his life before becoming a servant. It seemed like a painful topic to him. But I know his true name.

From:

diesifkilled

It's kind of obvious when you really think about it. I just...

[He sighs and runs a hand across his face.]

Forget about it. I don't know why I even brought that guy up to begin with. Let's talk about something else.

From:

backspacing

[Red looks a little confused by that, but she will go along with it.]

...alright. What did you want to talk about?

From:

diesifkilled

Uh.

[shit think of something quick]

Is. There something you want to talk about?

[NAILED IT]

From:

backspacing

[...]

You found out Archer's identity somehow and it's bothering you, isn't it?

[She's the observant type, sorry.]

From:

diesifkilled

[...]

Of course it's bothering me.

From:

backspacing

...

[There's no non-awkward way to talk about this, is there?]

If you would like, I can arrange a time for the two of you to speak about it?

From:

diesifkilled

I really don't think that would be a good idea. He hates me as much as I hate him.

[Which. Probably says a lot about the whole situation with them.]

From:

backspacing

[IT. IT REALLY DOES.]

If you are certain. But if you change your mind later, let me know.

From:

diesifkilled

Thanks, but I can't imagine ever wanting to hear anything he's got to say.

From:

backspacing

...if you're certain.

[Red looks a little disappointed, but won't comment on it further.]

From:

diesifkilled

[...Oh, he hates that look.]

Come on, what would we even talk about? How he became the total opposite of everything I believe in? Why would I want to hear about that?

From:

backspacing

I was thinking you might remind him of how he once was, and that he would have more to learn from you.

From:

diesifkilled

[He scoffs.]

It didn't look like he wanted to learn anything from me back home.

From:

backspacing

Different situations, different circumstances. You two aren't enemies in a war, for one.

From:

diesifkilled

We weren't enemies then, either! Tohsaka and I were allied, so we were on the same side! Hell, he even saved our lives.

[Which was pretty cool, admittedly. BUT STILL.]

From:

backspacing

And if he had won that fight, and eventually it had come down to your team and Tohsaka's team, what would have happened?

From:

diesifkilled

...Presumably the same thing that actually did happen. We would have fought Kotomine and Gilgamesh and destroyed the Grail. It's not like we had any reason to fight each other to begin with.