[He sits, and manages to pretty effectively curl in on himself despite being on a stool. When Red brings the water, he takes it. Yeah, he's probably dehydrated from... everything.]
Thanks.
Um. We... saw some pictures from your phone of other campers. [Somehow, this is the most important topic. Because... well, because Misuzu was here, at some point.]
Are... are all of those people... gone? [Oh hey, there are the tears again, and Chuuta scrubs at his face with the hand not holding the water.]
[Well, no, but that other picture was inexplicably weird and completely irrelevant, so Chuuta's ignoring its existence and nodding.]
... was Misuzu Sonokata really here? [Please say no. Please just... even lying would be better than Red confirming what he saw. And did she talk about me is the other, completely selfish and utterly pointless question that's burning him up. He knows she wouldn't, unless she was making vague and insulting illusions, or bad-mouthing him, but--]
No. [He says (sobs, really, but don't tell anyone) like he's saying "no I don't want the answer" when he knows that just means that yes, she was, and if someone like Sonokata couldn't get out of here, if she couldn't stop this or protect herself, then they're all doomed.]
But are you sure? [Chuuta knows what it's like to have something you can't live with and living on anyway. He knows what it's like to tell yourself something you don't believe until believing it makes everything easier.
If she's sure it's worth it, beyond the shadow of a doubt, then maybe it is. But if she isn't... that just makes everything worse than it could be.]
It's so quiet in his head right now, no comments or observations or the background blur of emotions that he'd never realized weren't his. It's empty, being alone in his own head.]
I can't... [He says, aloud and quiet as he tries again and again to just wipe his tears away and not be crying.] I can't do this. I can't. I thought I could help people, I thought I could protect people, but I'm not good enough.
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Date: 2018-06-26 03:41 am (UTC)Here, sit down for a moment.
[She's going to get him some water too. He looks like he could use it.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 03:49 am (UTC)Thanks.
Um. We... saw some pictures from your phone of other campers. [Somehow, this is the most important topic. Because... well, because Misuzu was here, at some point.]
Are... are all of those people... gone? [Oh hey, there are the tears again, and Chuuta scrubs at his face with the hand not holding the water.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 03:54 am (UTC)You...only saw pictures of campers, yes?
[Please for the love of god tell her you didn't see the 'private' ones. She will die of mortification if anyone did.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:00 am (UTC)... was Misuzu Sonokata really here? [Please say no. Please just... even lying would be better than Red confirming what he saw. And did she talk about me is the other, completely selfish and utterly pointless question that's burning him up. He knows she wouldn't, unless she was making vague and insulting illusions, or bad-mouthing him, but--]
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:06 am (UTC)Chuuta. Is that a question you want to know the answer to?
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:15 am (UTC)I... [no, sorry, he can't talk right now.
After a minute, he tries again.]
Are you sure it's worth it?
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:17 am (UTC)I have to believe it is. I don't think I could live with myself if it was all for nothing.
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:22 am (UTC)If she's sure it's worth it, beyond the shadow of a doubt, then maybe it is. But if she isn't... that just makes everything worse than it could be.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:37 am (UTC)She just falls silent.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:42 am (UTC)She isn't sure. She's done this so many times but she isn't sure it's worth it.
They're still going to die anyway. Chuuta doesn't say anything, because there's nothing to say.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 04:47 am (UTC)So instead, Red will lean against the counter and start humming.]
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Date: 2018-06-26 02:37 pm (UTC)It's so quiet in his head right now, no comments or observations or the background blur of emotions that he'd never realized weren't his. It's empty, being alone in his own head.]
I can't... [He says, aloud and quiet as he tries again and again to just wipe his tears away and not be crying.] I can't do this. I can't. I thought I could help people, I thought I could protect people, but I'm not good enough.
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Date: 2018-06-26 06:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-27 12:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-06-27 07:13 pm (UTC)ah yes the most terrifying tag i have ever received in my rp career
Date: 2018-06-29 12:54 am (UTC)But...]
You want us to give up, don't you? You just want us to stop fighting.
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Date: 2018-07-02 03:33 pm (UTC)But at the same time, if you did give up, I would not blame you.
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Date: 2018-07-02 11:01 pm (UTC)